DEADROSESFORYOU

2008-07-28T12:08:00.002+08:00

So SA Production '08 is finally over! I somehow feel that this time round I wasn't as involved as I was last year cos I only go for the rehearsals in between classes. Even on the production day itself I did not makeup for anyone. I was too busy getting help from Farra for my IP project. But at least I managed to sit through at least 1 run-through and get to see the actual production. :)
Sis and I have decided to invest in a camera but maybe must wait till abah gets back. And I really want to find a job cos I really do not want to be stuck at the office every weekday till 6pm for 2 mths! So yes I shall add that to my to-do list.
And finally this semester is coming to an end. I really need a good ol break. I'm starting to feel old.

2008-07-14T17:48:00.004+08:00

Its so ironic that I don't mind spending time editing my almost-done blog's template which also requires HTML codes etc but I dread everytime I want to finish up my WPDP project. Get it over and done with can?
Anyhoooo...spent a whole hour at Mount E just now cos the doctor was an old lady and had plenty of stories to share. Then dropped by TANGS and I just realised that spore's standard of living is really so expensive! GSS like no GSS like that. pfft! And somebody should kick my behind for being so fickle-minded. I'm so particular about small little details. The salesgirl at FashionFrontier looked like she was gonna bite my head off. But who wants to waste money on something which looks...wrong right? RIGHT! :)

2008-07-12T22:27:00.003+08:00

okay maybe the process of reopening my blog is taking slower then expected cos i've just got soooo many things to do! plus i'm getting sicker by the minute. WPDP project is cocked up again. I dunno how many freaking times i've redone it and its still the same. Thank goodness i've started on my Marketing Report which will be done soon insya'allah by this weekend.
Kak Wirda's wedding tmr which I might not attend cos first of all my 'escort' got driving then tuition and i'm so sick! how to go? and worst of all the tembel on my eye is getting bigger which means no eyeliner. no eyeliner = not stepping out of the house.
I can't believe i got an A for WDD. I thought I really screw that paper. And DSA a B+ was also a shocker. I thought the most I'd get was a C.
But IP practical test was a total screw up. I dun even wanna know what I got. So I must work hard for the exam. An overall D grade would be alright for me seriously. Same goes for DSA.

Okay off to bed!

fresh new look

2008-06-27T12:59:00.003+08:00

So initial plans of NOT reopening my blog went down the drain. Now i'm reopening it again after much consideration. I've decided to include Twitter as well just in case my blogging mood got lost again somewhere. :S
So i'm still in the process of editing the template. definitely no tagboard and links. just whatever I wanna blab about with no restrictions. :)
Yeappppp so back to the projects which I've not even start on at ALL!

2008-02-03T14:31:00.000+08:00

I've got 2 freaking pimples laaaaaaa. I practically went insane the morning I looked into the mirror to get ready and saw this two things smack in the middle of my face :( Stupid time of the month.
I've self-declare that semester 2 is over! Okay not yet actually. It feels like its the holidays already even though I am actually on a study break and have 3 more exams and 2 more project submissions to go before I can start celebrating. Guess I have to bring my notes everywhere I go with me 24/7 starting from today onwards. Okay maybe tomorrow cos right now I need a nice, long nap.
And I've been eating non-stop since my "holidays" have started. Especially when I'm at home the whole day. Like after every meal, I must must have desserts or snacks. How to lose weight like that? Haiyoo. Maybe I'm stressed eh? But I don't feel stressed. Not yet anyway.
Hmmmm....So moral of story: GO OUT OFTEN! which I will, starting from tomorrow onwards.
But first, I better get started on my sketches.

2008-01-27T12:09:00.000+08:00

1. PMS is not a lame excuse to be able to yell at you. It’s a great excuse.

2. We really can pump our own gas. It’s just that we’ve got this fantasy of you as a ’30s-era full-service station attendant. You’d look so cute in the hat.

3. We’re not complimented when you call your ex a slut. She dated you, too. So what are we?

4. We’re smart enough to know that smell is always the dog.

5. Yes, we can dish it out.

6. No, we can’t take it.

7. We want to raise children. We just don’t want you to be one of them.

8. Women are meant to talk and men to listen. We don’t want to be fixed; we want to be heard.

9. When we ask if you’ve had any work done, it’s because we want to know what our kids will really look like.

10. When we ask you how we look, it’s okay to lie; when we ask you how she looks, you better lie.

-Jennifer Love Hewitt

2008-01-22T01:07:00.000+08:00

Sometimes its not those major things they do or say that irks you but its those small, little, little things which really pisses the hell out of you. Like usually talking to the bestfriend has been something I look forward to but now I feel that I'd rather talk alone than trying my very best not to blow off my top everytime we meet.
On a lighter note, after approximately two weeks of very late/sleepless nights, I have finally finish my website. :) Exams seems so far away. I need a well deserved break! I'm starting to feel like an old woman with backaches and muscle cramps every now and then and I'm not even eighteen yet.
And I'm so sick of my laptop!
Just needed to let that out. Heh.

itchy eyes and sleepless nights

2008-01-17T00:44:00.000+08:00

I broke a record of submitting 2 MCs and an excuse letter in less than a week!
Tomorrow's gonna be really hectic. Hectic but hopefully satisfying.
The dark circles around my eyes are worsening and coffee is a must have practically everyday.
Oh, I've also learn to take forty winks during my half hour train ride to school. Though it doesn't help much.
Everyday's sucha drag, literally.
Oh well, that's life huh?

2008-01-11T23:49:00.000+08:00

Just when I thought today could possibly be the best day of the week, I'm starting to get pissed at little, little things-AGAIN. Sheesh!
And............I don't wish to elaborate further.
Goodnight!

2008-01-05T20:34:00.000+08:00

Fatigue and boredom just doesn't match.

From China, with love.

2008-01-01T02:28:00.000+08:00

Before departure

In the plane
Outside Chang Feng Hotel with the Bell Boy.
Day one's food
At Summer Palace
One of the salesguy we met while shopping at Yashow Market. He was so cute and only 18! Uncle Umar was the one who asked him to take pics with his 'daughters' too bad it turned out blur.
Forbidden City

Streets in China. They have a lane just for cyclists and there aren't much motorcycles in their country cos most of them travel by public transports, cars or bicycles.
This is how the mosques usually look like there. Doesn't look much like a mosque eh? The journey from our hotel to this mosque took about 2 hours. We all fell asleep in the bus and when we reached here there were reporters and cameramen all waiting outside our bus. And they snapped pics with all our 'baru bangun tidur' face. Very embarrassing. And most of the Muslims there spoke arabic so we all just nod along pretending we understood what they were saying. Some of them even thought we were from Saudi Arabia.At the Jade Center

At the Pearl Place. One of the places where we bumped into alot alot of Singaporeans.The parents without Uncle A.
The Great Wall. Heroes of the Day:

The huge hole that blocked the way.

The steps are very very steep. According to Mr Liu, some of it is about 80°. I almost gave up when I saw how steep the stairs were. And after 5 minutes of climbing, I got an asthma attack and my mother was like "Stop!Don't climb some more!" Hey its not like everyday you get to climb one of the seven wonders of the world. And everytime I started heaving, everyone will ask me to stop and go back down. Fasihah even told me that she just lost a friend due to asthma.Just the right kind of story you need to hear when you're high above and suffering from asthma.

Everytime we stopped to take a breather, we camwhored. All worthed it.

Both Uncle Umar and Aunty Hafizah managed to reach the top eventually even though they took their own sweet time.

Yay we've reached the top!
Mr Liu who took this pic and also our tour guide climbed all the way to the top just to smoke.
There were wolves hidden among the bushes/plants/mountains.
Toldcha we couldn't stop taking pictures.

Hafiz was way ahead of us, we even thought he got lost when actually he went to climb the left side of the Great Wall. He was the only one who managed to climb both sides.

At the Great Wall's entranceWe all look like fat Eskimos due to the 6 layers of clothings we were wearing.

RoseValley Ski Resort
The Ski Champs. They did not fall at all. Okay maybe like twice but they were good esp since it was ~~their~~ our first time. And everytime you fall you can't do anything but to wait for someone to help you up. Very very frustrating.
Ibrahim trying his best not to fall.

Its 2.46am and I'm still wide awake. And very very bored,
Happy 2008! :)

2007-12-31T13:39:00.000+08:00

Blogger is being an ass. I shall upload photos soon.
I am so not looking forward to school.
Two weeks is just too short don't you think?

2007-12-27T15:07:00.000+08:00

Aaahhhh...Home Sweet Home.
My China vacation was FASCINATING! Simply fascinating. The sceneries, the people, the places, the weather. Everything was just fascinating.
The weather was soooooooo cold. It even reached to about -5° on a particular day and all of us wore layers and layers of clothing not wanting to freeze to death especially since that day we were going to climb the famous Great Wall but instead we ended up sweating when we were only halfway up there and started taking off our gloves and mufflers and even our jackets.
We spent Aidil Adha at a mosque and the Chinese Muslims there were very welcoming. They gave us food and drinks and even though they don't know a single English word they still wanted to communicate with us and we ended up talking in Arabic. They didn't mind when the kids made a mess by throwing oranges and spilling Jasmine Tea on the floor. Instead they gave us more food and refilled our drinks.
Outside some of the Muslim restaurant there's bound to be a few good-looking Kashmir guys selling nuts. One of them grabbed my arm and said "Aisha?" I turned and said "No, Syahira." HAH!
We made friends with a millionaire who gave each of us a jade necklace from Myanmar. I know, JADE?! But it is expensive. Maybe I will go pawn it or sell it to some nyonya and earn some $$$. :) He's a half Singaporean and he was so modest. He even shared with us his deepest, darkest secret. We only learn that he was a millionaire when he told us he owned a few restaurants and several companies in Thailand and his Jewelery Shop in China is sponsoring for next year's Olympics.
The best part about China was obviously the shopping. You can get a D&G bag for as low as S$20 or less. Of course the actual price is pretty expensive but tourists will bargain non-stop till they get the price they want. When we saw something we like we will leave it to our parents to do the bargaining. Surprisingly some of the salesperson thought we were Malaysians and speak Malay. Some never heard of Singapore before. How sad is that? And I was too busy shopping I totally forgot to buy souvenirs until the last day. You can't blame me, I literally shopped till I dropped.
It felt as though we were in Malaysia when we spent 2 nights at a Ski Resort cos we bumped into so many Malay Singaporeans and Malaysians. There was one night where the whole bowling alley was occupied by Malays.
Everyday was a blast I tell you. We girls will crash the guys room almost every night with snacks and instant noodles and make a mess till midnight (There, midnight is pretty late okayyy...especially when we have to wake up at 6 everyday) If its not the guys room then it'll be one of our rooms. And sometimes our parents end up joining us when they come barging in asking us to go to bed early.
The last night was the best. We girls crashed the guys room to charge our handphones , PSPs and Ipods using Bud's laptop and intended to stay up all the way till 3 am cos we had to wake up early to catch our morning flight but by 1am we all fell asleep. All cramped up on Hafiz's bed. Me and Fasihah managed to sneak out and go sleep properly in her room.
The only thing that sucked was the food. Imagine eating rice and soup and have tasteless Jasmine Tea for breakfast, lunch and dinner everyday for a whole week. It was torturous I tell you. On day 4, I stopped eating dinner and on the last night when I did, I vomited. Thank goodness I was going home the next day. The first thing I bought when I reached Singapore was prata and Mee goreng which I have been craving since forever.
This is by far the best holiday ever. I think.. But its so good to be back home.
Very very lengthy. I shall stop. Pictures will be uploaded soon when I have the time. :)

2007-12-18T16:25:00.001+08:00

There's a story to tell

2007-12-16T18:01:00.000+08:00

My room is in a mess.
There's a huge luggage sitting on the floor-open and half full. Or more like 3/4 empty.
I don't know what to bring. I don't know what I SHOULD bring?!
Since the term break has started, I've been spending hours and hours infront of the tv; movie after movie after movie when I should be packing.
And now when I'm in the mood to pack, everyone is sitting on the sofa, movie marathon-ing. Pfft.
I've been an insomniac for the past couple of days and I don't know why.
Maybe its the weather but Channel 5 and Star World should really play some nice late night movies for people like me. I even watched Asian Idol cos that was the only decent show playing last night. But I fell asleep halfway cos it was too boring.
I hope tomorrow will happen cos I really wanna see you all before I leave..
Don't you just love the weather?
I do :)

An arrow through the head

2007-12-11T12:13:00.000+08:00

Goodness I get so distracted easily I feel like punching myself sometimes!
The last thing I need is more distraction but so what?
I have a day left to get all these facts about Colours, Art and Designs in my head.
Or at least before Thursday.
Okay time to go winter shopping!

Letting go

2007-12-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

Sometimes its just too hard to say goodbye..

Like a kiss through a veil

2007-12-07T17:48:00.000+08:00

MONDAY

Tuesday till Thursday was spent on revision for tests and doing assignments. Although this week is the last week of school, it is even busier than the previous weeks. Lecturers flood us with projects just before we leave for our term break. Like as though two weeks is enough to complete all 4 projects(and still counting) that are still pending. Sheesh..

FRIDAY
Met up with the bestfriend to catch a quick movie before her class starts at 4pm which she ended up not going cos she was the only one. I know I know I'm so slow. This show is like so yesterday rightttt... But at least I still manage to watch it in the cinema. The show was awesome! No wonder Fana din mind wasting another $8 just to watch to watch it again.
Just when I thought I could at least relax and let go a little bit, I just remembered that I have to start studying for Graphic Design. Sheesh!
1 week down, 1 to go. Now I can't wait for the end of next week. After the Common Test and Alumni Night, I'll be going off somewhere far, far away where I'll make sure I have tons of fun before coming back and spending the rest of the term break finishing up projects.

Let's Rewindddd

2007-11-28T16:01:00.000+08:00

I feel like I can just drop dead any moment now. Life has been pretty hectic lately. Like everyday I'm rushing to class and when I'm back home I'm either rushing to get my assignments done or study for class tests. Its like non-stop I tell you. And I have trouble waking up early practically everyday. Like 6 hours of sleep isn't enough for me. Well obviously it isn't enough cos I've reduced the number of hours I spend on my afternoon naps.
And today is officially the worse day of the week. Not only the outing with my cousins was cancelled, I had to spend the rest of my birthday money on my phone bill because it exceeded $100 and dad went hysterical. On a lighter note, I just found out that next week is going to be the last week of school and I only have 1 paper to study for the common test this time round :) Boyyyy am I excitedddd!!!
If my life were a movie, I would have fast forwarded this week and the next and go straight to the holidays. But since my life isn't a movie, I'll just screw that thought for now.
And for now let's just embrace life.
I couldn't even be bothered to listen in class anymore. Why listen when I will only be having only 1 paper?? Hurhur..
Oh another longg day tomorrow and I'm so not looking forward to it at all.

Cos life's like that

2007-11-23T20:36:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day I came home early this week. And I thought at least I can get some work done before dusk but then I woke up only at 6pm and then took my own sweet time and the next thing I know, its already Maghrib. I need to start disciplining myself for a start.
And I just spent the last hour watching the latest episode of Heroes. So much for discipline!
When is December 18th coming? It seems soooooooo far away! I need to go away nowwww....

Birthday Celebration(s)

2007-11-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

Okay here's the update for this week.

Sunday
First advanced birthday celebration was with Mel. Spent the whole day shopping and she paid half for my Dorothy Perkins top :)

Monday
The clique treated me to Swensens after school. OMG the food was so filling. I couldn't even finish the main course and little did we know that the set meal comes with desserts. And we still haven't ate the Chocolate Fondue. But we manage to finish at least 3/4 of it cos it was super delicious. We all went home with a huge huge tummy.
Thanks Yana, Neera and Ilham for the gifts and treat :)
And when I got home, Hafiz gave me Taufik Batisah's newest album, Teman Istimewa. Okay maybe not so new but still... I squealed/screamed/hugged him continuously cos I was bloody excited. It was his first gift to me, mind you. And its TAUFIK BATISAH! Aaahhhh... I know!!

Tuesday
Tuesday was THE day.
And I just had to get emotional on my birthday. It has become like a tradition every year. Pfft. But a conversation with the bestfriend made me feel a whole lot better.
And my food fest continues. Met up with the bestfriend after school and got another treat. At the rate I'm going, I'm so gonna grow fat by the end of this week! Got myself a decent book and stuffed ourselves again at Gelaré. We were so full we almost vomited in the bus on the bumpy ride back home.
Sis dragged me out of bed that night when she got home to give me presents. I grabbed all of them, thanked her and went back to sleep. Hey I was tired okayy..
Dad came home, sang me a birthday song and told me in the politest way that he forgot that today's my birthday. And then came the best part; he gave me an extra $50 on top of the $70+ he & mom already gave me. If like that, I so don't mind if he forgets my birthday every year. Heee....
And then I had to spend the whole night studying for my E quiz which turned out to be an open book test. grrr..
Thanks for the birthday wishes people. I even received some texts from several unknown numbers. Heh.
Of all weeks, it has to be this week that I have lots of tests. And I just realised that this post is pretty lengthy don't you think?

Goodness gracious!

2007-11-17T20:37:00.000+08:00

Oh great!
My mom is angry at me cos the house is in a mess when she got home, my sis won't stop nagging, my bestfriend is probably mad at me cos I was mad at her and I'm HUNGRY! And bored too. :(

Today is soooo mundane and boring. I was stuck at home the whole day doing nothing. So then I thought why not I do something productive like studying but I ended up watching tv instead.
And then I got bored again so I watched Bratz movie since no one wanna watch Bratz movie with me rightttttt.... That show is so decent I tell you. And the girls are just too perfect.

Oh oh and no one texted me today. Can you imagine that?! Its like monkeys falling from the sky!
But luckily I've made plans tomorrow. :)))) I'd die if I were to sit and rot at home again. Monday is just too far away....And suddenly I can't wait to go to school. pfft.

I can't wait for next week cos then I'll be loaded again. I hope. I keep forgetting to ask mom for my allowance this week cos for the past 2 months I haven't been relying on her. And yes after 2 months, I'm finally broke :(

Okay goodbye blogger! You're so addictive you! Huhuhu..

Maybe the timing is beating our hearts

2007-11-15T19:53:00.000+08:00

I received my first warning letter this ~~semester~~ year.My first ever. So much for wanting to be a model student for once. Its not like I skipped my elective class twice on purpose. I did have a valid reason the first time; the second time maybe not so valid but I had to finish up my assignment. That's valid enough.. Some lecturers can be real petty sometimes. pfft.

I thought of just slacking infront of the tv the whole night since I had a really rough and longggg day(yes, again) but then I dowan to end up having nightmares in the middle of the night after watching Titanic so I'll just start my tv marathon a little later.
Aww no Bratz movie for me tomorrow :(

I'm tired too so why not we just give it a rest? Its true what Neera said, I have to be honest to myself too.

Another long day

2007-11-13T20:09:00.000+08:00

I have wayyyyyyyy too many unknown contacts in my current MSN and so I made a new email but then Hotmail is being a bitch right now and I can't import ~~all~~of my contacts to my new account. And the most troublesome thing is to add people one by one. Its gonna take me A-G-E-S I tell you. I should pay my non-schooling brother to transfer all my contacts. But on second thought...maybe not.
So am I suppose to regret making a new email account?
My IAD assignment is not completed yet and its suppose to be handed in by Thursday.
And every day's a long day.

Just so yunno, I'm very careful with my words cos I dowan to make it sound like I'm giving you false hopes.
Plus I wanna be really really sure bout my feelings.

Friends are the simply the best.

2007-11-11T11:35:00.000+08:00

Starbucks, LJS, arcade, window shopping, bowling. I had sooooooo much fun! Minus the part where I wasted 6 bucks on some not nice toffee nut frap at Starbucks and when I got fed up cos half of us were late and when I almost vomited while cleaning up Dazreel's mess.
Told you they're the best!
:)
Actually there are loads more but first I must hunt Rin down plus I'm too lazy to upload pics.
Tee hee...

Awak kpo laaa...:)

deepavali morning

2007-11-09T17:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I woke up with a terrible sore throat but still managed to drag myself out of bed at 9am to accompany the bestfriend to buy some stuffs for some open house. We were so early that we were the only customers at LJS and at some shop at penin. Ultra cool I tell you cos I so hate crowds. Anyhoots, it was the fastest shopping we've ever done. Like less than 2hours and the best thing was that we managed to buy ourselves pumps for 10 bucks! Green pumps. Matching green pumps. Well obviously it has to be matching right I mean which idiot doesn't wear matching shoes?
I woke up after 15 mins of sleep dreaming that dragonflies were chasing after me. And then I couldn't go back to sleep. And sis was being a lazy ass when she told me to fry her some patties cos she was hungry. And so I did cos I was hungry too. And she makes the bitterest most tak sedap maggi in the world. Even she can't swallow her own cooking!
Had dinner at Fairuz's. Watched movie after movie after movie till everyone got bored and fell asleep on the couch. Dinner was great though too bad I din have the appetite.
And now I have fever and I won't stop sneezing. Luckily today's plans were cancelled.
& I had the weirdest dream ever.

shoo mosquito, shoo!

2007-11-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

I thought I was the only one but it seems like many other girls out there are also PMS-ing. Thats good to know. At least I'm not alone. I was blog-hopping you see.. Its not like I stalked them or something..
I'm bored.
There's a mosquito in the room and it just won't go away. Irritating bugger! I'm trying to ~~study~~ here.. Maybe some bygone might help. Hmmm...
Yeah that'll teach you!
Its only 11.40?!?! I thought its midnight already.
-_-
slowosity yunno?

friday night, monday blues.

2007-11-05T09:51:00.000+08:00

I'm thinking of deleting my tagboard again. Hmmm...
Its not that I dowan to update its just that everytime I wanna update, I get distracted. Okay that is one of the lamest excuse ever. hah.
Friday night was Drama night which was super awesome and kecoh. Tiring too. But all the plays were superb. And yes Ilham, you looked hot in that pimp outfit. Shaddup already?! HAHA!
Some random photos snapped with the makeup artistes during the 10 min interval.

Actually there's lots more cos we just can't get enough of ourselves but....this is enough laa okay?:)
School was sucha drag today, I keep looking at the clock waiting for 1pm especially during elective class. If I knew, we could appeal, I would have done that ages ago!
I'm so dreading school tmr...long hours of endless tutorials=TOTAL BOREDOM!! Tell me how am I gonna survive esp wen we end at 5pm tmr?!

You are soooo sweet and its not just a cliche line girls noramlly say after saying thank you but I really mean it. :)

craving

2007-10-29T15:30:00.000+08:00

Okay screw that last post.

Aahhh how I wished I could have followed Najib to downtown east yesterday to watch Zul's band play live. It always happen on the wrong day. Daaang it! Nevermind I'll make 10 November happen. =)))

I'm hungry and I have cravings for stupid little things like hot chocolate and Mcspicy. Grrr...

I feel so light-hearted and free today and I'm so not looking forward to go to school tmr. Because school can be so blearghhh sometimes yunno? Dry topics with lecturers who just can't stop rambling on and on. So what if they lead a boring life? That doesn't mean WE have to lead a boring life too right? Ape jerrr...

My bestfriend is so funny. She is the reason why I still use voicemails. Its times like this where I really need her but come to think of it, I better stay away from her cos I dowan to end up snapping at her for no good reason and then that dream will come true.
Oh sucha random post..
I'm pretty bored actually..
Oh well..toodles!

I did miss you on Saturday. Thats why I texted you. =)

stupid lousy feeling

2007-10-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

Usually I don't regret making mistakes but somehow, this one I really regret.
That stupid lousy feeling just wouldn't go away.
Must be the PMS.
Yeap. Confirm its the PMS.
Can I like just disappear for a few weeks and come back after that?
Maybe that'll help.
Sheesh..

very random

2007-10-24T18:12:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel suffocated and restless like my hands are tied and I can't roam around freely. Goodness I sound like a dog! Hah.

I wanna steal Santa Clause's big red bag so I can stuff my laptop and other nonsense junks I bring to school in it and just drag that big red thing to school every single day. But I must go hunt for him first. :)

I dun feel like typing a proper entry cos I'm mentally and physically tired.

P.S Dumbledore is freakin' gay!!! Whoaa... J.K Rowling is the best mann!

Oooh...Yana's seventeen already! Enjoy today like no other okay cos today is YOUR day! Even if it means not giving way to a blind man. Haahahaha... =DD

No secret message for you today mister! cos you din behave today. buahahahha...
I din noe what to say so I thought it was best if I din say anything but I was wrong. Its not ur fault. It never was. Come to think of it, I think its all my fault. I dun 'reply to ur messages' cos I dowan to give u false hope cos if it doesn't go well, I'll end up hurting ur feelings and that makes me the ass. Believe me when I say I'm trying cos I really am.

=(

2007-10-20T20:20:00.000+08:00

I just wanna curl up and die.
Like Bill Gates once said, "Life is never fair. Live with it!"
Or at least I think that's what he said.
When I said I had a feeling that this Raya will be a bit different, I didn't expect it to be so unexpected and so different.
It still haven't sunk it yet. The fact that she's gone.
She's gone. Forever. Just like that.
But Dadi is in a better place now.
Insyaallah everything will be back to the way it was soon.

I'm sorry for my behaviour for the past 2 days but I dowan my emotions to somehow affect you if you know wad i mean. And no, I wasn't lying when I said I was thinking bout you. Thanks for the encouragement and just so you know, I DO care, who says I don't? :)

the godfather

2007-10-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

Today
was
GREAT!

The Godfather is well and alive and still pimpin'!
Buahahaha....
Okay crap.

school schmool!

2007-10-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

I really don't know what i see in school. For the past few days I couldn't sleep cos maybe I was so semangat to go to school. But when the lecturers start talking, my semangat-ness POOF! go away just like that. They crap around talking about everything and i mean EVERYTHING but none of these things have got anything to do with the module that they were suppose to teach us. Like today we were suppose to end at 5pm but we got released at 2pm cos they canceled our lecture. Maybe they are still in their holiday mood eh? But tell me how am i suppose to get a Diploma with Merit like this??
HA-HA-HA who am I kidding man?!
So since the lecturers were too lazy to teach us, I also couldn't care less so I met up with Mars last minute plus I was feeling really lousy and she's forever free. Most of the time at least. Heh.
Now my legs need a massage.

If you're feeling bad, what about me? I feel like shit and I hate it. =(

eid celebration

2007-10-14T22:30:00.002+08:00

Eid Celebration See the mat in black? I picked him up along the way. He was our photographer for the day. Okay strike that. 2 days! hahaha..
and those two 2 rascals are the reason why i cant have a decent conversation with my other cousins. But at least they made my day. :)

i hate myself

2007-10-12T11:16:00.001+08:00

im sucha bitch.

you'll always be in my prayer, Dadi.

2007-10-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

It is so heartbreaking seeing her lying in bed, hopelessly. And its even more heartbreaking to see her open her eyes and not recognise the people around her. Its the first time I've seen her looking so weak and fragile. I just have a feeling that this year's Raya will be a wee bit different than last year. I hope Dadi will be out before Friday else I guess we all are gonna spend the whole Saturday at the hospital and god knows what will happen there. I don't know what and how all of us are gonna do without her. :(
This week is suppose to be the most busiest week but somehow I find time is passing by so so so slowly. Like the second hand takes its own sweet time to move, yunno? Well they better hurry up la cos I don't have all week to watch it move so slowly and besides school is starting next week.
New semester, new modules, fresh start. :)

small world

2007-10-07T12:24:00.000+08:00

Do u realise how small this world is? Like suddenly you discover that almost all of the people you know somehow know each other? Like your classmates are actually your distant relatives and your friends are your cousins and your close friends know your other close friends? This shows how small Singapore is. Like really really small. Tiny red dot! And soon, the world won't be an interesting place anymore. Its gonna be a boring boring piece of land.
My room is spankin' clean. My side of the room at least. I've removed all unwanted books and junks I've kept for years. Now I need to remove my sister's junk which will probably take me days by the look of it.
Oh well then i better get started.
I wish you all the best my dear friend and hope you have a safe trip. :)

ass!

2007-10-03T13:44:00.000+08:00

And you just had to mention the word love, ASS!

najib's birthday

2007-10-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was suppose to be a childish day but it ended up being one of the suckiest and most tiring day ever. And today? today started off with disappointment and ended with boredom.
On a lighter note, i'm going shoe shopping tmr. No work tmr. Just me, fana and a bunch of shoes to try on and....... today is najib's birthday!
That prettyboy finally turned 17 and soon, its gonna be my turn. Then i'll be able to say "we are of the same age okayyyy!" You better watch out 17 year olds!
buaahahahhahaha......

my bestfriend

2007-09-29T20:51:00.000+08:00

I think my bestfriend is in town cos i get pissed at the slightest thing and almost everything.
Well bestfriend, you're not doing sucha good job at being MY bestfriend so please shoo!
And what is it with people and dengdeng?!?!
DEFINE DENGDENG PLEASEEEEEEE!!!
goodness!
See....i'm getting pissed again.

off day-again

2007-09-24T11:26:00.000+08:00

I think dad knows me best.
I was sitting at the desk, yawning nonstop and doodling on whatever pieces of paper that i can find when half of the staff had already left and then dad suddenly comes out of his room and gave me this 'don't-try-to-act-like-you're-doing-something-cos-i-know-you're-not-doing-anything-you-lazybum' look.
And he never fails to catch me red-handed everytime. Talk about being at the right place at the right time!
No wonder they say I'm daddy's girl. :)
And today, another unexpected off day again.
I need to get started on the shopping part but I don't seem to have the time. Oh well, I still have about a few more weeks left so no rushy-rushy. I rather sit at home and bury my nose in novels or sit infront of the tv for hours or simply do nothing! THAT is what i call a REAL holiday bebeh..
Its all about doing the things you enjoy doing right?
cheers!

results

2007-09-20T13:11:00.000+08:00

I'm suppose to be getting ready but here i am, blogging.
I was heading to the toilet this morning to take a bath when dad said i can take the day off. I immediately went back to bed. Hey, Its not like everyday you get to sleep till late yunno..
Results were out yesterday and I must say i'm not very pleased with my results but i got 2As so i might as well be pleased cos i can't remember when was the last time i got an A on my report card. What more 2As. heh. Anyways, its only the first semester, so its just a small step. Insyaallah i'll work doubly hard next sem.

I'm gonna be late and fana is so gonna be one angry girl today.
Time to fear!
:)

lethargic

2007-09-17T20:05:00.000+08:00

Skipped work today and went to the doctor instead. I knew i shouldn't have eaten prawns yesterday. My eyes were like watery and swollen and i looked disgusting. Make a quick stop to the library and borrowed some novels. I was feeling so lethargic when i got home and ended up sleeping till 5pm.
I have work tomorrow. I keep hinting dad that i don't wanna work but do i have a choice?
Well, actually i do but if its not me than who else right?
I'm not really enjoying the holidays as expected. Its been sooo tiring. Holidays are suppose to be relaxing,no? Now i really miss school and my friends. Been a long time since i last saw yana and neera and ilham.
Can't wait when school reopens and somehow, I'm quite excited to start the 2nd semester.
goodnight.

ramadhan

2007-09-13T13:17:00.000+08:00

helloooooooooooooo

First day of Ramadhan today. Ramadhan = Hari Raya soon! :)
Luckily I've managed to satisfy my craving for that oreo cheesecake yesterday just in time before Ramadhan starts.
Its kinda a dread to go to work nowadays. Esp since now we can't eat and all. I'm so gonna be bored during lunch time. Summore Fazlyn doesn't come everyday. Booooo...Like now, its lunch time and im sitting on the desk, typing this entry while everyone else is resting.
I have papercuts all over my hands. Kinda sucks yunno..No more beautiful hands animore. haha!

HOROSCOPE FOR THE DAY
Today is much better spent thinking than acting. You may need to sit back and take extra time away from the desk or office and simply ponder the issues you may face in life.

what a lie!
im here, sitting in the office, cold and bored.
what take extra time??
ponder what issues??

note to self: NEVER trust horoscopes.
Anyhoots, SELAMAT BERPUASA! :)

BAD

2007-09-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

i think my small hands and feet are shrinking. yesterday, i took so darn long to pick a bracelet cos almost all of them were too big for me. And i bought a size 4 slipper the other day. SIZE 4?! I'm a size 6 la.. well, at least i thought i was..
and now I'm feeling so sad. i won't be able to go out with Najib on his birthday. =( he was always there to celebrate my birthday and now when it's his birthday, i can't make it. I'm sucha bad friend.=(
oh. and i prefer my blog without a tag board. =)

2007-09-07T12:34:00.001+08:00

i'm taking a break.
and yeah, no taggie at the moment.

grad night

2007-09-04T20:16:00.000+08:00

i chanced upon this picture at iqee's Multiply. Sadly, this is the only grad night photo we took together as a group. I think. Grad night wasn't best day of my life but it was certainly one of the most memorable day. I kinda somehow regret i didn't cherish every moment of it. that's the problem with me. i take practically everything for granted. Anyhoots, ive yet to start working. told dad im too lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and im not done rotting. so i'm prolly gonna start working next week or something. we'll see la eh.....

i'm so over exams!

2007-08-29T19:17:00.001+08:00

hey hello.
the minute i handed in my last exam paper, i heaved a huge sigh of relief.
exams are finally over. syukur alhamdulillah.
i feel so free now.. like as though a huge load is off my shoulders.
now, its celebration time! =D
SO, to mark the end of our exams and misery, my lovely friends, yana & ilham and I went to watch HAIRSPRAY.
it was superb! I'm so gonna watch it again next week. Totally worth it yunno..
Oh! and not forgetting, today is Hafiz's birthday. I'll give you your present soon esp since now i'm very very free. teehee..
Anyways, Happy Birthday dear brother. I still love you even though you can be sucha pain in the ass.
good day people!

soon!

2007-08-27T17:51:00.000+08:00

2 down, 1 more to go.
Wednesday is the day i bid exams goodbye.
and I'm soooooooooo freaking excited!

BAD DAY

2007-08-24T11:24:00.000+08:00

BAD DAY

1. had to wake up at 9am due to sumting sumting.
2. i keep falling asleep while doing my last minute revision.
3. i had a bad outfit day.
4. math paper totally sucked.
5. got home rather late and was trapped outside of my own room cos sis was having tuition.
6. TILL 10PM!
7. an old friend suddenly remember that i still exist when she really needed me.
8. and instead of studying for my next paper, i went to bed.
and the rest i shall not elaborate..

HARDCORE MUGGING

2007-08-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

fortunately today passed so fast. and before i know it, its my exam tmr!
im blardy excited cos i so cant wait for it to be over.
oh exams...what took you so long?? ahaahhaha...
i manage to rent 2 novels just now.
see.....who said im not prepared for the holidays? =D
Anyways, my plans for tonight?
HARDCORE MUGGING.
okay maybe not till 3am. I think 1am is enough. I hope.
i can continue tmr morning.
my brain needs to rest too okay.
so which means i better get going now if i wanna sleep early today.
so toodles people.
oh and i was studying when i suddenly felt so inspired.
and now i feel like writing it all down.
no syahira. you need to study.
your computing math exam is tmr for goodness sake!
i'll..............think bout it.
teehee..

B.O.R.E.D

2007-08-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

i feel so extra weak today. i woke up at 1230pm and went back to bed at 3.30pm. and the next ting i know, its night time already.
everyone's exams are almost over except for me. wen is friday coming? i cant wait for friday.
this is sucha a random post i know.
im BORED.
exams are nearing and i should be more enthusiastic cos its gonna be over soon but nooooo...
im getting bored. this two weeks have been sucha a drag.
looooooooong and draaaaaaaaaaaaaaggy.
i better get going now.
else i'll end up sleeping again.

bestfriends are forever

2007-08-18T23:41:00.000+08:00

do you know why it rained so heavily this morning?
cos my bestfriend sang enrique iglesias's "hero" last night to cheer me up.
even though she doesn't have a powerful voice like JLO, she just wanted to make me laugh.
sweet kan??
=D

argument

2007-08-18T01:20:00.001+08:00

i just fought with sis. so how now?
i'm suppose to go study with her and khai tmr.
does that mean i cant tag along?
maybe i just should kpo kpo.
i mean she did invite me
and i DO need help in math.
i dowan to study at home alone on a Saturday!
esp when i keep switching on my laptop for no good reason.
why is everybody being sucha pain in the ass these past few days??
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..................GERAM NYEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
timecheck: 0120 hrs. and i'm not studying.
somebody kick me!

going through hell here

2007-08-16T13:36:00.001+08:00

I'm tired.
I'm sleepy.
and I've got a lot lot lot more memorizing to do.
and i swear i hate JAVA.
and how am i suppose to memorize all my COS tutorials when i keep forgetting what i have memorized??
all i keep studying is math. dammit!
i dunno why but i just can't seem to burn midnight oil. I'll end up sleeping instead.
maybe i should sacrifice my afternoon naps..
or maybe not..
i thought of putting nice pics to 'beautify' this dull blog of mine but I'm just plain lazy.
pictures are gonna have to wait.
and i need to get back to studying or else I'll never finish in time.

randomosity

2007-08-11T11:26:00.001+08:00

STAGE ARTS ANNUAL PRODUCTION IS OVER! 3 months of hard work all paid off. im so gonna miss being the audience /'judges' during the rehearsals, the kecohness in the dressing room, the makeup-ing and everyone. =( but i tink all of us did a really great job. so KUDOS to us!
=DDDDDD

-_-

2007-08-05T16:50:00.000+08:00

I'm on M.C. and there is no panadol left.

end of semester

2007-08-02T20:55:00.001+08:00

End of Semester 1 = YAYNESS!
the only thing left is common tests and exams which is gonna drag all the way till end of August. dang!
im sick. my throat is killing me and ive been having this nauseous feeling since i woke up just now. =(
and i have to start mugging summore.this is so not the right time to fall sick. so many things are coming up nex week mann...butttttttttt...i cant wait for nex week. stage arts annual production! oooohhhh...EXCITING NYEEEE!!! =DDDDD
i bumped into roses this morning at gombak mrt. and ilham just had to be a teeny weeny bit late and she had to go off first. grrr...
oh ya! yesterday's SBM day went smoothly. it was a bit kecoh at first coz there were too many people and too little makeup artistes. but then we managed to make them look good in time. makeup-ing guys is so much easier than makeup-ing girls coz guys are less demanding but abit too chatty. make me lose my concentration only.
cool right?????
I KNOW!!!
okay bye-bye!
sumtimes the person closes to me is the one that get on my nerves easily and that sucks. agree??

shaddup

2007-07-31T21:02:00.000+08:00

Its true when they say that if you laugh too much, you will end up crying later on.
so moral of the story?
its better to just shut up.
goodnight.

decisions-pfft!

2007-07-29T20:45:00.000+08:00

Sumtimes i wish i was still a little girl where i rely on my parents to make the decisions for me. I hate making my own decisions sumtimes.
I thought i was going through hell this month. apparently im not the only one.. thats good to hear, no?
I tink i need to go on a shopping trip after my CTs which is before my exams. Coz like ive said a million times before, i need a break. But i cant wait till my vacation coz its like sooooo far away larh. I need a break A.S.A.P! Ive planned a whole lot of things to do during my vacation. Like sleep alot alot, movie marathon, go out with tons of diff ppl, catch the latest movies, shopping etc etc etc.
See how im in desperate need of a vacation?
okie dokie people.
im off!
P.S thx Tuah for the advice and motivational support. i really appreciate it. =)

oh bother!

2007-07-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

i'm really pissed.
i dun feel like talking today.
say hello to PMS!
photo shoot was FUNtastic yesterday. so kecoh.
practically everyone from the 4 departments were there. great fun!
i love STAGEARTS!
ok bye!
dah malam. aku nak tido.
i'm still pissed though.
grrrrrrrrr.........

pics

2007-07-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

Communication Skills presentation today. Another fun day. =)
Im damndamndamndamndamndamndamndamndamndamn TIRED!
3 projects down, 1 more to go. (handing it in tmr yo!) CANT WAIT!!!
after dat im gonna spend a whole day pampering myself.
IF.............i have the time.
coz im a very very very very very busy woman yunno..
BUT.........after that i have to start studying for common test oready.
and after common tests, exams.
how sucky is dat ?
VERY. i tell u.
nighty nights people.

i need to be free!

2007-07-21T22:20:00.000+08:00

Make up prac was FUN FUN FUN!!! we make each other look like an old hag. no doubt we all look pretty ugly with all those fake wrinkles. blearghh... wanna see pictures???
DONT HAVE! haha! i dun take ugly pics okeh..only nice nice ones. =D so after removing all the ugly makeup, we make each other up. and den camwhored like nobody's business using neni's camera. =)))) we head to mac to have our lunch and den head home. pictures will be up once i got them from neni and if im not lazy enough. I have 3 projects to be handed in nex week and i cant wait to hand it in even though it isnt completed yet. after handing them in, i'll feel so free! can joget-joget!
=D
what i have to wear for my presentation on tuesday is more important then the project that im suppose to present, The project isnt completed yunno..confirm tmr night i'll be kanchong kanchong trying to complete it.
oh well.. im off!
goodnight beautiful people(s)!

projects & presentations

2007-07-17T22:13:00.000+08:00

me & norazura's work.

us doing our thang. =)

english presentation went well yesterday.=) really proud of my group mates and i even though our presentation was rather impromptu. and so after this week, no more english lessons! yayyyyyy........
i really cant wait for the 6 weeks break. (6 weeks? or izzit longer?) i need alot alot of rest and time to go out and chill coz its been a long time since i last did dat. ok....bedek. =D i swear im gonna beg my parents for a long holiday. i dun care where as long as its long,nice and relaxing.
i cant wait for all my projects to be handed in and presentations to be over.
so far, 1 down, 3 to go.
cant wait for semester 2. new semester = new,less boring modules(i hope)
&& why is there so many cant waits in this entry? hmmm...
why am i sitting here blogging when im suppose to be studying for my database fundamental E quiz which is tmr??
ohhkayyy people. nights.

P.S credits to norazura for the pics.
P.S.S i miss dad. =(

oh the guilt!

2007-07-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

I cant believe it but i just caught the sneak preview of Harry Potter & the Order of the Phoenix with fana just now. It was totally unexpected. We din plan on watching it.
But...........IT WAS GREAT!
But i feel kinda guilty coz i was suppose to be at DMD lab doing my animation. But it was totally worth it. =)
& i thought i was never gonna watch Harry Potter but i did.
It was damn full. But we manage to get a decent seat.
You guys should cepat2 catch it okayy? Do whatever it takes to get those tickets.
Life's been great. Minus the 2 projects that is due next week and the long hours in school. Everything is great.
Sorry ida for not meeting up with u this week. I promise u next week will meet up. Especially after i've handed in my project, a huge weight will be lifted off my shoulders.
Ok im off!
I got to complete my animation.

transformers, robots in disguise.

2007-07-06T20:18:00.000+08:00

Transformers is superb,cool,awesome,fantastic,exciting and all the nice nice adjectives u guys can find in the dictionary. hahaha...&& i wanna watch it again.

i was cringing throughout the whole movie for god knows wad reason. i really wanted to pee real badly but tahan-ed till the movie ended coz i dowan to miss any part. and i tink i din blink throughout the whole movie. haha.

fana said optimus prime the robot is hot. i keep telling her its a robot but she wouldnt listen. pfft. tuah was oogling at megan fox, me at josh duhamel and fana at umm...optimus prime.. haha.

next up: HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX.

im a lazy ass. ok bye!

i think karma is getting back at me.

2007-07-05T10:18:00.000+08:00

IF only i could turn back time, i would have said goodbye before my departure.
IF only you understand, you wuld let me apologize.
IF only you had leave me alone, i would not be thinking about this too much.
IF only i were stronger, i could hold back my tears.
IF only i had more heart, i wouldn't have done sucha ting.
If only i could live in the past, i would correct all my mistakes.
SORRY?

familia

2007-07-03T09:03:00.000+08:00

the Chishty family. where's mom? grandparents.

we got bored.

sisters.

AWWWWW.....sis and umair.
ibrahim.
a decent pic of us.
hafiz.
me and ibrahim.

mom and sis.
them again.

dad was too busy eating to strike a pose.

LOVE LOVE.

=))))

celebration time, COME ON!

2007-06-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

i love mom for dragging me outta bed early in the morning and forcing me to go shopping with her and sis. i came home with a big tummy and a ~~big~~ lots of plastic bag. =)
i was supposed to go back to skul and do my eng project but god knows wad happened to my groupmates man..pfft.
COMMON TEST IS OVER! yayyyy...i swear im the happiest girl on the planet now. well, not really coz i havent start on my project yet
&& my handphone is giving me problems. HOWEVER, spoilt phone=new phone. no?
huhuhu. =)))
its been donkey years since i last watched a movie so to celebrate the end of our common test, yana and i watched Nancy Drew at AMK Hub yesterday.
AMK Hub is gonna be my favourite haunt.I can tell. I'll make sure i drag fana the next time we go out.
cheers!

random

2007-06-26T18:39:00.000+08:00

my house is squeaky clean coz mom hired a part-time maid to clean our house today. =)so i just sit down and goyang kaki the whole day.having common test tmr which im so not looking forward to. wanna get it over and done with so i can enjoyyyy this weekend. well, i cant really enjoy totally coz i still hav projects and assignments but still, i'll make sure i enjoy first.
i kinda miss school actually.
oh well.
goodbye!

insomnia victim

2007-06-25T00:28:00.000+08:00

i cant sleep and i cant study either.
i havent been eating properly since i got back from camp. which is like 3 weeks ago. maybe its the camp food. or maybe its just me.
oh man....
i so need a break.

goodbye.

goodbye.

2007-06-21T17:32:00.000+08:00

it's funny how you can be a regular reader at my blog and not tag. Oh yes, i know you read my blog. And to think that we were close friends last time. If you drop by just to be a busybody then i ought to thank you for your concern. But i cant. Coz u've changed. A lot. So much for being together after secondary school.

my test.

2007-06-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

take my test. i wanna know how well you people know me. please and thank you. =)

wedding

2007-06-17T17:37:00.000+08:00

i was supposed to go to my 'religious class' (NOT madrasah) in the morn but went to a wedding instead. but this wedding isnt like any other weddings ive attended coz the bride is a japanese. coolness...!i din get to see the bride & groom however coz we were in a rush and had to go off a.s.a.p. && i still manage to look good even though i had only 15 minutes to get ready. =D
and some makcik thought i was working already.she said coz i was so tall and look so mature. well...i cant help it that im tall can i? huh makcik? and i was wearing heels summore. grrrrr..
aniways i cant wait for wednesday. i'll make sure im gonna watch oceans 13. or fantastic four. wadever it is i MUST watch a movie.

i wanna go watch gilmore girls now.
bye.

hotness

2007-06-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

i was watching APM just now and goodness! i nearly fell off the sofa when i saw taufik batisah. literally. he looks sooooooooo GOOD in white. luckily i wasnt der if not i bet i wud have fainted there and then. huhuhu...Hotstuff.

ok bye!

incomplete

2007-06-14T14:05:00.000+08:00

so i was supposed to go out with fana,najib and roses to watch Oceans Thirteen but it was cancelled last minute [brad pitt must be pretty dissapointed =P] and then i was suppose to spend the day with dad at his office but then there was a change of plans-AGAIN. sucks doesnt it?

and i so so so so HATE PMS!!!!

my life's been like a living hell since my PMS started.

&& i miss marxie. she's been uber busy since she started working.

and ida, wen are u taking me out??

im craving for cheesecakes and hot chocolates already!

hurhur.

i tried to go on like i never knew you.

i'm awake, but my world is half-asleep.

i dream that this heart would be unbroken.

but without you all i'm going to be is INCOMPLETE.

some stupid game.

2007-06-11T21:56:00.000+08:00

i have no choice but to do this okeh. thanks to ilham.

EACH PLAYER OF THIS GAME STARTS OFF WITH 10 WEIRD THINGS, HABITS, OR LITTLE KNOWN FACTS ABOUT ONESELF. PEOPLE WHO GET TAGGED MUST WRITE IN THEIR BLOG 10 WEIRD THINGS, HABITS, OR FACTS, AS WELL AS STATE THIS RULE CLEARLY. AT THE END, YOU MUST CHOOSE SIX PEOPLE TO BE TAGGED AND LIST THEIR NAMES. NO TAG-BACKS.

1. i dun just look at boys. i do check out girls coz some of them are really prettayy. and no, im NOT a lesbo.
2. no offense, i find male caucasians a lil bit disgusting coz i always imagine them having big ****.
3. i always fantasise that i get married to a hotshot superstar.
4. sumtimes, wen i look at married couples, i get scared. wonder if i'll ever get married and with whom.
5. i always assume that the guys i like, likes me too.
6. wen i cry, i always pretend as though im acting in some drama. haha!
7. if my family isnt that pious i would have auditioned for a beauty pageant.
8. i always act like i care but actually i dun.
9. wen i see singers up on stage,singing, i'll imagine its me.
10. i hate looking at myself in the mirror. with and without clothes on.

the ppl i wanna tag doesnt hav a blog so i tag ida,mel and roses. =)

there!
now the whole world knows...
-_-

home sweet home.

2007-06-10T20:56:00.000+08:00

i just got back from camp and im so freakin exhausted.
sorry to all those who texted me. i'll get back to u soon.
insyallah.

ok.bye.

pei yi's bdae.

2007-06-06T21:22:00.000+08:00

i really din noe dat yana took a snap shot of this.yes ilham, i noe im cute. u can stop staring now. haha!
birthday girl and me and the cake.woots~~

ilham[without his colgate smile,THANK GOD!] in black, me, the geek in the pink and the non-stop smiler, yana in grey.

typical poly students who just ended lecture.
birthday girl trying to stuff all that meatball in her mouth. GO PEIYI! =P

and finally, the BIRTHDAY GIRL HERSELF!

HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEN PEI YI!

=)))))

thanks for nothing

2007-06-04T21:16:00.000+08:00

i didn't know i'm only important when u needed help.

ibrahim's birthday.

2007-06-03T20:21:00.000+08:00

today is my 10 yr old brother's birthday.

HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY IBRAHIM!!!!!!!!!!!

woooootsss~~~~~~

this is him. SYED MUHAMMAD IBRAHIM CHISHTY. the one and only sibling who looks like me. sad, i noe.

see....we have the same cheekbone. HI-5!
i tink he was trying to be cute but............nvm.

seriously, i dunno wad he's trying to do.

actually he wears specs but i told him dat hot guys dun normaly wear specs and asked him to take it off if he wants his picture taken. huhu. i din get him anything. YET. coz im broke so his pressie is gonna have to wait.but he's fine with it. =D wad are sisters for??hurhur..

spend spend spend.

2007-06-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

today is so so so tiring. as usual, i went for makeup practice this morning and it was soooooooo much fun! obviously we make up each other. && neera made me look sooo pretty. yayyyyy..HAHA. and den i made her look pretty as well. even dayana said dat we both look like brides. *blushing* hurhur. nahhh....

ok mebe we dun luk 'special' in this pic but u shud hav seen us juz now coz we were like a star. a shining star. shine. shine.shine. =D and so i joined familia+dad's fren+wifey+his lil bro at town. and my was i soooooooo darn shocked that his lil bro was hakim! my schoolmate back in hgv. wadz with all de bdk2 pondok and me? -_- first najib den tuah den hakim.luckily hakim is the quiet type and im the shy(syai) type so we din talk.=P

i almost bought a warehouse top but it was wayyy too expensive. i was shopping alone at P.S while on the fone with fana and ended up buying a mascara and an expensive charm bracelet. damn.

aunty faridah will be going back to australia tmr. booooooo.........and the sad part is i cant send her to the airport coz i hav to sit at home and mug for my upcoming test.

=( =( =(

i shud really thank syed umar for teaching me java. thankie thankie. =]

random.

2007-05-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

i like it wen people look at me as an inspiration or wen they envy me because then i'll realize that i'm not sucha bad person after all and that i'm a good influence. =D

well obviously not everyone will admit dat im a good influence like fana. haha.. but its ok. ignorance is bliss.

this post is really random coz im just taking my mind off sumting.

i realized that im not being myself lately.

i realized that i've been day dreaming wayyyyy too much.

i realized that i've been acting really selenge this past few days.

i realized that i've been sleeping a lot lot lot.

&& ive been watching step up again and again and again. well i cant help it coz channing tatum and jenna dewan are such good-looking people.

who doesnt wanna fall in love like this? you tell me.

love.

dictionary meaning of love.

2007-05-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

i was browsing through the dictionary when i came across this..

LOVE(noun):-
Unrealistic feeling of warmth, security and sense of companionship. (See lies)

cheers.

chase.

2007-05-24T01:26:00.000+08:00

i chide. i scream. i cry.
you don't care. you never looked.
even when that image of yours is lost from my mind,
i didn't feel anything.
not even a single tinge of guilt.
should i? should i care when you don't?
I lead myself into my own world.
yes, i had to coz u weren't there.
i was ensnared by your world of lies.
scarred and stained, I now live in a world full of lies.
your lies.
i thought that you will be there.
to hold my hands, to whisper in my ear and say that everything would be ok.
but you ran.
you ran thinking that i'll chase.
but you're wrong coz i'm done chasing.

its 1.30am in the morning and im wide awake. i've just completed my webbie page. FINALLY! i took 4hrs to get it done and now i've got a backache. =( and im only 17. boooo.... i'm awake as though i dun hav school tmr. so i shud get going.

goodbye beautiful people!

so much to do, so little time.

2007-05-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

i'm real sleepy. and tired. i slept for an hour just now and forced myself to get up to complete my webpage. this week seems so long and tiring. have to go back home late practically everyday and i'm not done with my assignment yet and it is due this thursday.
so much to do, so little time.
i cant wait for friday's STAGE ARTS NIGHT. i dunno. i feel like as though im in sec. school going for grad nite.which makes me feel young. oh wait. i am young. huhu.

my songbook is full. damn. where shud i scribble my rants?

shop shop shop

2007-05-20T12:50:00.000+08:00

aunty faridah is in singapore and she will be coming later for lunch! yayyyyyy........ my house will be soooo kecoh later esp with the twins and my 3 bros who dunno how to sit still.

i tink the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE has started coz i went to town with marxie yesterday and every shop we went was having a sale. And we got free lip gloss from a Raffles's JC gerl. =D

nex week will be pretty busy. i hav to get started on my eng assignment nex wk and hav to finish up my web page by the end of nex week. so much to do, so little time. and i dun tink i'll be meeting fana nex week. i'll juz hav to wait for nex saturday when we all will be going to cathay to watch pirates of the caribbean. =) i hope der wudnt be any change of plans.

i tink i shud buy eyeshadow(s). i look good in them. =P thanks to neera.

backache.

2007-05-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

i've been searching for a blogskin since 8pm till now but i still haven't found the right one.YET.
im having a backache.
and my web page isn't done yet. and i need to get it done a.s.a.p.
but let's look on the bright side.
im going shopping tomorrow! =))))
and i just saw an advert in the papers that dorothy perkins, topshop, warehouse etc etc are all having a 50% off sale!
girls, its time.......................

recalling memories.

2007-05-16T20:48:00.000+08:00

went back to hgv to get our Olvl certs after meeting fana and roses. luckily we din bump into any umm....kepo students/teachers. we did however bump into Mr Salihin otw der. too bad marxie wasnt der if not i bet she'll scream "ZAIBOOOOO!!!" LOL.Mr Mustafa was der and he seemed rather shocked to c us. de grown, mature,good-looking us. hehe..he did say that we din look 'seleke'[however u spell it] like last time wen we were still in uniforms. and he oso mentioned that we look prettier and much more mature now. we all went "DUH??" huhu.
so den we went to de canteen and spent five mins[thx to fana] recalling all our past memories in the canteen toilet. the toilet really mean a lot to us. the time we cried after our oral tinking dat we wun do well, the time wen we cried coz of our broken hearts, the time wen we wanted to be away from the 'world' and so we hid in the cubicles. yes, all 6 of us in one cubicle. hurhur.

we, gerls den head to JE entertainment to have an early dinner/v.late lunch at long john. met najib der after he finished his guitar club. so den we ate and talked.like old times..

and this neoprints were taken like 2 weeks back but i juz got it from fana juz now. so nahhh...

the formal, black&white version of us.yayy..najib looks taller for once. :P

fana with her umm..'rock' face and me trying to selit2.

najib looks gay-ish and me, as hot as ever. HAH! fana and her "wad are u lookin at?" face.

i just had to add this part coz if i dun den ilham hunt me down in skul. goodness! had a 'daiso' adventure with ilham b4 meeting up wit fana. well, I was suppose to find a pair of footwear coz i broke my glam and glittery flipflops but den ilham was wayyyy too excited to get his beanie so we head to daiso ferst. den after long and tiring hours of helping him choose his beanie,( ok mebe im exaggerating a bit. heh.) we den look for my slippers and i ended up buying an ugly, 13 bux, gold slippers.desperate times calls for desperate measures,no? and ilham juz had to take a stoopid 37 sec video of me walking in my broken slippers. thx uh. -_-

ok bye.

hwefwejnfwenflw

2007-05-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

i had a really STRANGE encounter today and i dun wish to type it out here. because its too strange and im still traumatised. heh. no la...i juz dowan to type it here okie.
my laptop is fixed. yayyyyyy...joget-joget.
i feel bare without it. its like i dun feel like studying. its like i really rely on my laptop. obviously i hav to ryte. i mean wad can an IT student do w/o a laptop? NOTHING i tell u.
2 weeks seems sooooooo darn long. i nid to do some shopping. i nid clothes. i nid more slippers. i nid more bags. i nid more accessories. and the list goes on and on and on...
how can i tahan for another 2 more wks? by then it's gonna be the june holidays. must go shoping ASAP.
i was browsing through my testimonials on frenster juz now and was reading all de crap dat my ex-classmates wrote for me. esp hariana and filzah. dey can be so crappy and lame and funny sumtimes and i was laughing out loud alone[as always] i must have looked like a sick retard. oh how i miss my sec skul life.
and this bloody indonesian song is stuck in my head. u ppl shud listen to SAMSONS- BUKAN DIRIKU. its sucha sad sad sad song...even wen im in my most active and lively mood, i can still weep wenever i hear this song. good for emo-ers. =D
im sleepy....

love.

friends.

2007-05-12T18:28:00.000+08:00

wen dey say that ur secondary school friends are the ones who will be there with u all the way, i tink dey're right. wen i have problems it is dem who i run to for help.well, for me dat is. ok, mebe not ALL of dem. a few. but still....dey're the ones who understands u best besides ur family.
so thats why i syg bestie and najib and iqee and tuah and roses and marxie very much even though i dun see them as much nowadays. =))))
im prolly gonna meet up with fana and najib next wk coz fana still owes us our neoprints. and my cousins from Australia are visiting us nex wkend. yayyyyyyy.....
at least ders sumting to look forward to nex wk.
i heard that the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE is 2 weeks away! woots~~~
my hands are starting to itch. cant wait....! now who shud i drag along with me...

and just so u all know,
im not emo. like marxie always say, im not a canned food. i dun need labels.

adioz.

i hate skul

2007-05-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

I HATE SCHOOL!

period.

10 tingz.

2007-05-06T17:01:00.000+08:00

10 things you MAY not noe bout me:

i love to shout/scream wen im angry, frustrated or furious. i feel like relieved after screaming u noe..dat feeling. =)
i hate awkward conversations/situations. it makes me feel uneasy and den i'll end up biting my nails. heh.
i dun eat dinner. i'd rather sleep den eat dinner coz once i start, i cant stop. =D
im a 24/7 mood swinger. i can be laughing and talking non-stop and de nex ting u noe, i'll just shaddup.
im a pessimist.
i like male artists. i tink dey're very talented and most of them are very good-looking.=)
i wanna get married a.s.ap coz i wanna hav my own house. =)))
i tink grandmothers are cute. okeh..dat sounds so wrong but seriously...de way dey nag,scold or give u advice. very cute u noe...feel like pinching deir cheeks sumtimes.
i tink crying helps wen ur in pain. like a huge load is lifted off ur shoulders. so yes, i do cry alot.
last but not least...im a very very sensitive person. so mind ur words people. =)

so now u noe...well..its not like u ppl care or anything but just FYI okeh.

horoscope for the day.

2007-05-05T16:10:00.000+08:00

HOROSCOPE FOR THE DAY[my horoscaope that is..]

you are convinced that a loved one is withholding something important from you. Get to the root of this feeling, or it could become a self-fulfilling prophecy. you are playing a role in this situation too, so deal with it.

wad is dat suppose to mean? -_-

random pandom.

2007-05-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

ok..umm... i dunno wad to blog about and just so u all know,

I HAD GREAT FUN YESTERDAY!!!

=))

even though we din get to watch spiderman3. i did enjoy my day.

yayyyyyyyyyyyyy..............

and even though it was only the 3 of us..

WE STILL HAD FUN!!

yayyyy again.

my mind is totally blank.[as usual.heh.]

so skul is great. life is umm....great. i guess.

life is nvr great. its always ok.or good. but nvr great.

not yet at least. =)

u know..i keep telling yana to keep her hands off MY scofield. she even has his pic as her desktop wallpaper u noe..GOODNESS!

if i get jealous how??

lol.lol.lol.

so yana..please okeh. no sharing. u can hav bellick if u wan.or T-bag.

i dun mind. =D

the song 'im not a girl not yet a woman' is stuck in my head.

im so old skul sia..

sucky mucky ducky chucky

2007-04-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

sucky mucky ducky chucky lucky.bucky.

i feel so sucky today. i had to go to school. i came home late and by then i was too tired to even go out. wen i wanted to talk to sumone badly, she juz had to ignore me. thanks eh. i was left alone at home while the rest went out. my voice is hoarse. i ended up vomitting my dinner instead of eating it. my bestfren is at camp. marxie isnt using her fone so i cant ask her out. im stuck at home for two days writing lyrics and rot infront of the tv and indulge in self-pity.
pfft.
i so love weekends.-NOT.

random post.

2007-04-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

Im bored..
Had only one hour of skul juz now which seemed so pointless. Having stage arts tmr.and I swear dat de makeup crew will so definitely regret not choosing me and neera. Hmpfh. I was rushing out of westmall-alone juz now wen I bumped into nazirah and her umm.’gang’ been a longggggg time since I last saw her and her umm…..fren hu used to be my ‘fren’ anyways, she knows that im in NYP. Surprise surprise. And I think she was nervous coz she asked a real obvious question. She asked :dah buat kwn kat NYP?” and I replied “ dah lah. Dah lame dah start skola kan syg” hhuhuhu.
Followed neera to meet her frenz and her boyf after skul juz now.very kecoh. And neera had to translate every word dey said coz I din understand. I did actually. But not all the time. Heh.
&& im officially a slave now. sis are on crutches and mom is sick so ive been running arnd, managing the household. boooooo syai...
and im really glad dat i have 3 days whereby i do not hav to layan u at all coz i dowan to be hurting ur feelings and and i dowan to be all emo about it and end up jeopardizing our friendship. its the wkends anyway. i hav to enjoy dun i?

love.

my emo story.

2007-04-22T01:29:00.000+08:00

as i look up the sky i see stars. stars that glitter above me. why cant i be like them? shining away? even if i fall, does it matter? would you look back and help me? or would you just let me bleed? bleed till i can no longer bleed. im living in self-denial. because im not just suffering from a depressive disorder, im starving. starving for attention. from you. from him. from them. im touchless. im senseless and im yours. im your immortal. and nothing can change that. not even the earth, the sky, the stars. ive been trying to reach you. every second this image of yours come and haunt me and it stays. ive tried and tried again. its like a blade that has scarred my wrist. and to think that you were there for me when everyone ran away. just go. goodbye suicide lover.

an emo story by an emo someone.

skul skul i love u. =)

2007-04-20T01:17:00.000+08:00

school is great. itz juz the long hours dat tire me. esp wit long hours of lectures so i juz had to take a break so met up with najib and fana on wednesday. ate at pizza hut and we were so full we couldnt even stand up. heh. so den najib followed us go window shopping den we teman him look for shirts. we got bored so den we lepak-ed at coffee bean at westmall and met fana's 'fren' and so datz wen we start crapping till 7pm.
ive made a new discovery. dat dat irritating, annoying classmate of mine, muhammad ilham bin othman used to be in my kindergarten class! wad a small small world. and wad did i do wrong to have receive such a punishment? kidding onlie la ilham. dun go crying inside de toilet okeh? later i'll ask roger to come find u. :p
i had a very bad dream juz now while napping. i woke up and i kept tinking bout it. wad if its true? wad wud i do? i told neera bout my 'situation' and she advised me. she even tink of a plan. huhu. den i got all excited bout it. datz y one shud appreciate deir gfs. =) so gerls, u can dump ur bfs because relationship come and go but friendship lasts. so must appreciate ur gfs more okeh? =p
met up wit fana again todae after skul. im not used to not seeing her everyday so i have to see her as much as possible if not i'll miss her. hehe. i miss najib too. datz de problem wen u hav a cute fren. u miss dem too much =)

just wen i thought i cud escape from seeing dat face again, u came back to haunt.
i din asked for it. cause if i had it my way, i wud have left it lying in de dirt.
please leave. im begging u.

its 1.15am and im still wide awake. having auditions tmr for de stage arts dat i signed up for. wen was the last time i went to skul on a saturday??hmm...

love.